Don’t Give Up Five Minutes Before the Miracle Happens

Miracles happen every day. Life itself is a miracle. But most of us ignore the everyday ordinary miracles in life.

I originally wrote this post in 2020, but in light of the recent tragic event of tWitch committing suicide on December 14, 2022, I have decided to update this post to reflect new resources and insights.


Don’t give up five minutes before the miracle happens

I talk a lot about my suicidal ideation in this blog and there were plenty of times that I wanted to give up in life and kill myself. But when I was in recovery, I heard someone say, “Don’t give up five minutes before the miracle happens.” This statement really had an impact on me. After I heard this, I became curious about my future and decided I wanted to stick around to see what was going to happen in my life. I waited many, many years for the love of my life to come around and he finally did when I turned forty. I waited my whole life to have a baby and I finally did when I was 47 years old. This baby was my one true miracle in life.


The Miracle in My Life

When I was 42 I had a miscarriage. Shortly after that I went to a fertility doctor who told me that my best bet of having a baby was to get an egg donor! I was apalled. When I was in graduate school I made a vision board which had a picture of my ultrasound from when I had my miscarriage and also a picture of myself as a toddler. I put the vision board by my bed where I would see it every day. And would you believe I got pregnant — naturally, I might add — at the ripe old age of 46!


Vision Board of Baby Faith

A True Miracle

I Googled the odds of getting pregnant at the age of 46. The results showed that there is only a 3 to 5 percent chance of getting pregnant at 46. And then the odds of having a successful pregnancy are 0 to 1 percent. Like I said, Faith is a true miracle. I am so blessed to have her in my life and be her mother.


If you are feeling desperately alone and suicidal, PLEASE reach out and get help. Call or text 988.

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